There are things in this life you must do alone. These things always come with risk and demand from you, authenticity.
It is a job done singly because only you can journey to the depths of your being to find what is at the core. This is not another person’s job in the world. So don’t be waiting on anyone else.
It is risky because once you find what is at your core you will feel the burden to live it out loud, to bring it to life, to birth who you really are to the world.
You’ve been working hard. You’ve chosen how you will spend your time and your life and you are working to remain faithful.
But you may be getting tired.
Your steam may be running low.
In this case, it may be important to note the regular rhythms of work and passion and vision.
There are always times of cloud-shrouded uncertainty of task and days. This is really, really normal.
If you are a woman, you are beautiful. There is not a woman alive who does not carry the stunning beauty, a unique reflection of God.
But there are many who have tried to skirt around this, avoid it, deny it, destroy it even.
Who has tried to destroy your beauty?
Others maybe. Yourself perhaps. Most likely both.
If you are doing it right, the things you are about are way bigger than you. Risking forward you have found yourself out beyond your depth. Not too far beyond, but enough to remind you of your humanness and your frailty on a daily basis.
In this your strength is increasing, your muscles are developing, your savvy is being fine-tuned, your wisdoms are coming into their own, strategy is grounding you, yet, out of your depth you will feel your weakness. This, is exactly right and okay. For here, in the smack-dab-middle of something much bigger than you is where the magic happens.
Last week I decorated the mantle. It was a little early but what the heck, lights and colours and shine are always lovely. And besides, this is the first year in a few years that I am home to actually decorate for Christmas.
So you can see in the picture above how lovely the foliage was. and how much I love colour at Christmas.
In the last year God has been teaching me to NOT provide for my own needs. This has been a most amazing process and lesson. For instance, I’ll be in a store and I’ll be looking at the soap, thinking, “I am almost out of soap. I should buy some soap.”
But then I think, “Well, I can last another week or so with the soap I have. I’ll just wait to buy soap.” And within that week, lo and behold, someone gifts me some soap. This has happened a couple of times. Just like that.
The Lord your God is in your midst,
a mighty one who will save;
he will rejoice over you with gladness;
he will quiet you by his love;
he will exult over you with loud singing.Zephaniah 3:17
