The Work I Do

My role at Capturing Courage International Ministries is a full mix of out-front edge of the wave activity and then behind the scenes nurturing of infrastructure and CCIM community.

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As The Future Comes Together

It is July 1st. Some months back I had thought that come this time I would be in Uganda. But as the time approached there was simply no clarity regarding the multiple details that would have to come into place and I soon (although perhaps not soon enough) realized that I was not to be in Uganda in what is my home-time season of summer.

I needed to be home in the early parts of September and so this detail set into place the only other possible time to make this three month trip to Uganda. We began thinking and planning toward mid-September to mid-December.

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A Glad Heart

It is each of our responsibilities to nurture a glad heart within ourselves.

A glad heart is a barometer and its also a buffer.

A glad heart tells us when we are being true to ourselves or when we are not.

A glad heart is the oil of life that makes living sweet.

Without a glad heart we become brittle and even caustic.

Without a glad heart our words and our manner no longer bless others and our favour on earth becomes lost.

Everything begins to dry up and atrophy.

We want glad hearts.

We must nurture glad hearts.

First in ourselves, then in others.

This begins with the simple question, “What makes me glad?”

By what am I refreshed? Where do I find joy? How am I delighted?

Make your list – seriously.

Nurturing a glad heart requires a commitment on the one who owns the heart and it requires intentionality to care for said heart.

It’s not something you can be without this year.

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Three Days Only

Next week, for three days I’ll be making myself available for complimentary coaching, consulting or prayer ministry sessions.

  • Coaching – If you want to reach to that next level but you are not sure how
  • Consulting – If you are requesting expertise and advice taken from my own experience and journey
  • Prayer Session – If you need someone to lead you into deeper freedom through prayer

I am making these sessions available to 12 individuals on a first come, first served basis.

  • Wednesday, January 15th, room for 4 sessions; 9am, 11am, 1pm, 3pm (Pacific Standard Time)
  • Thursday, January 16th, room for 4 sessions; 9am, 11am, 1pm, 3pm – PST
  • Friday, January 17th, room for 4 sessions; 9am, 11am, 1pm, 3pm – PST

Each session will be for one-hour.

Again, this opportunity is on a first come first served basis so if you are interested please contact me below and let me know:

1. What kind of session you would like, coaching, consulting, or prayer

2. Best day and time for a session

3. Second best day and time for a session

4. And a brief summary of what kind of help you are looking for; what do you want to go away with. 

I look forward to speaking with and serving you.

NOTE: All sessions are kept in the strictest confidence.

A Reinvention

I’ve reinvented myself a few times over. From fearful and shy to settled and leading requires a few changes to one’s inner core along the way.

And as I’m looking ahead at 2014 it occurs to me that another reinvention is necessary. While the foundation is well laid within my own life and the life of Capturing Courage International the necessary and expected increase requires my own growth first and foremost.

This is the same for all of us. What has gotten us to today will not get us to the tomorrows that we want. Each new phase of life requires an expansion within our heart and mind. Our internal capacity is, after all, what grows our life.

My own process of inner growth always begins with identifying the parts of myself that I am not happy with. Where am I holding back? What still frightens me? What parts of my life are still not quite working?

I take hard looks at the outward identifiers of relationships, finances, daily habits, health, and more. What do these tell me? What have I been not wanting to see or admit?

And then I begin asking even more questions:

  • What might growth look like in this area?
  • How might I like that to be?
  • What small changes will create big shifts?
  • If I made one change in this area that would make a difference in all the other areas what might that one thing be?

Key to all of this is refusing to rush to conclusion.

Rather, we hold the questions open for some days, letting them settle in and through all the layers of our being. Questions like these will tap into our inner gut if we refuse to satisfy them too quickly with our own best wisdom.

We gather all possibilities, all brainstorming is laid out, and we wait.

Visioning then begins. How might I like to see myself? What would that particular shift do for me, how would it impact my life?

And in my mind’s eye I see myself with this new skill or that new confidence. I envision the changes I want to see, I may even feel the changes in my emotions and the way my body reacts to things. I then leave my visioning in my mind’s eye. I back away and allow my mind and will to go after what I want. Emergent energy takes over.

This process is easily 50% of the work alone. It is not so much the precursor to work – it is much of the work. Where most rush to change the outward those who take the time to shift the inner picture will end up with growth that sticks.

This is how I’m spending the last days of 2013 – I’m hanging out with myself in the depths of my own thoughts, in curiosity I am questioning, envisioning, and moving towards my own best future.

And as 2014 moves along I’ll add my own best efforts, due diligence, disciplined hours, healthy habits, and hard work to the mix, and we shall see how things have turned out a year from now.

Radical Movements

I am thoroughly enjoying the cool air of home. Today is overcast and rainy, chilly to the bone… I love it! The only thing I have trouble with in Africa is the heat. And during this past trip I bordered on serious heat and sun exhaustion a number of times. Note to self: when I go to India (cause I believe it is even hotter there), take an umbrella.

It was strange sitting in Heathrow Airport halfway home clueing into the Christmas decorations present, “Oh yeah… Christmas…” It was strange to read a comment on Facebook about Halloween and have my brain slowly trying to make sense of it, “Oh yeah… halloween… that happened while I was gone…”

Ever since I’ve begun international ministry I am pretty much out of sync with seasons, time of year, and generally where I am in the calendar year. It’s like perpetually living in another time zone.

Little things like rain don’t bother me whatsoever anymore. What are a few little drops? I’ve been to Africa and back by myself! What once made sense, doesn’t. What seemed so important, isn’t.

Cyndy bald

There is a freedom to life now that I never used to have. A strength and resilience that can only be found when we place ourselves in situations where things must come together, or fail miserably.

The day a few years back when I shaved my head for a friend was a profound moment. I’ve never been the same. There is something about radical movements of heart and soul and body that deeply change us from the inside out. Literally, nothing has been scary after shaving my head.

I’ve been home from Mozambique now for nearly a week and rambling away, but bottom line, I too am still asking myself, “Who do I want to be in this life?”

The answer to this, we go after that. Such query is a lifetime worth of work and it just keeps getting better the older we get. This I know.

What are you going after? What edges are you taking yourself to? What kind of person do you want to be in this life?

What radical movements of heart and soul and body might you make in the near future?


It has been quite the week.

I’ve prided myself on my little bit of ‘stuff’ but oh man do I still have too much. The process of moving seems never-ending and there is more to come. My youngest  and I are tucked in at my folks place, but Tuesday will find us on the last leg of our transition as we head to one of the gulf islands here in British Columbia.

A few days breather in-between isn’t hurting us one bit.

Change takes work. It doesn’t happen all on its own. This I know.

The kinds of change required to take us into new spheres and open up new opportunities must be engaged and invested in. It is a LOT of work.

Whether the change is an external one, or an internal shift of heart and soul, it is still hard work.

In fact the hardest work, it might be argued, is the internal work required to ‘keep up’ with our external changes.

Thank-fully the sun rises and shines no matter our process and it reminds us that there are constancies in this life. There is much to count on as we go forward into change.

Most of all, we must always remember that we take ourselves with us. External changes do not change who we are.

Years back I did a move upon which I put my hopes and dreams of a better life, better relationships, less stress, and more cohesion.

What I forgot, or didn’t fully realize at the time, is that I was taking me with me. The others on that move were taking themselves too.

It was a disaster. Instead of cohesion I found chaos. Instead of better relationships I found brokenness and fear and personal disaster.

A move, a change meant to bring about good things, launched years of very bad.

We weren’t solid, didn’t have character, wanted a quick way out of relational and life difficulty. No wonder it didn’t work.

There is no other way to life and good things than the hard work required to stay the course, developing depth of character doesn’t just happen. We are never magically mature.

This move, this time, has no hopes pinned on it. This time, this move, my hopes are pinned on the Lord. There are parts of this transition that I am fully confident in, and parts that I’ve really no idea how it may turn out.

But I do know that I take my Lord, and I take my more mature self (thank God) and with the Lord’s orchestration of my days I suspect these new things around the corner will be for blessing.

This time I am in sync with the Lord’s plan for my life and not my own. It’s already working out so much better.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11