Body Wisdom

I’m writing this in the quiet of the night. One would think that the silence of an island would enable one to sleep longer but this has not been my experience. Wide awake after only four or five hours of sleep is becoming my normal.

At first I fight it, “Just go back to sleep” I tell myself. But when this doesn’t work I simply get up and go about my time as though it were really morning. I’ve learned to run with this ‘awakeness’.

I’ve always been able to gauge low-grade depression through my sleeping patterns. When I was young and working as a baker with very early mornings I was much the same way as now, needing only a half-dozen hours of sleep at most.

Some years later as I became less congruent and authentic in how I was living life I found it more and more difficult to get out of bed each morning. When what I wanted and what I was doing was in discrepancy I slept and slept.

Sleep has proven a very useful barometer of how truthful I am in my inner core. When I am engaged in activity that is peripheral to my true purpose I become tired and lethargic in my spirit and I sleep so much more. When I am living out of my purposeful core, in authenticity about my life, I sleep less.

During some of my worst years sleep was a drug. If I could sleep longer my days would be shorter. Less boredom, less frustration, less sorrow; there is less of everything when we sleep our lives away. In contrast, living out of my inner core my body resonates excitement and purpose and I no longer need sleep as a drug.

My body tells me what I need to know about my life and the way I am living it. Our bodies, after all, know what we do not know. The internal state of our hearts and minds shows through in our bodies if we will just take the time to listen and learn to read what our bodies are telling us.

Three Days Only

Next week, for three days I’ll be making myself available for complimentary coaching, consulting or prayer ministry sessions.

  • Coaching – If you want to reach to that next level but you are not sure how
  • Consulting – If you are requesting expertise and advice taken from my own experience and journey
  • Prayer Session – If you need someone to lead you into deeper freedom through prayer

I am making these sessions available to 12 individuals on a first come, first served basis.

  • Wednesday, January 15th, room for 4 sessions; 9am, 11am, 1pm, 3pm (Pacific Standard Time)
  • Thursday, January 16th, room for 4 sessions; 9am, 11am, 1pm, 3pm – PST
  • Friday, January 17th, room for 4 sessions; 9am, 11am, 1pm, 3pm – PST

Each session will be for one-hour.

Again, this opportunity is on a first come first served basis so if you are interested please contact me below and let me know:

1. What kind of session you would like, coaching, consulting, or prayer

2. Best day and time for a session

3. Second best day and time for a session

4. And a brief summary of what kind of help you are looking for; what do you want to go away with. 

I look forward to speaking with and serving you.

NOTE: All sessions are kept in the strictest confidence.


When did I first begin abiding? I can barely remember. But I know it was some years back now. I can picture the kitchen of the home I was living in at the time.

I can remember the difficulties within my own walls. I remember the years of profound sadness. I remember loneliness. But over all that I remember this abiding place with Jesus that superseded all of it.

I learned to ‘be’ during those years. To sit in pain, to allow sorrow and to just be beside my God and he alongside me. Such sweet remembrance, such a sweet smell to it, even now.

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A Good ‘Ol Romp

My bags are packed and I’m ready to go. I’m heading off to Mozambique for three weeks.

I’ll be ministering alongside 9 churches there. We will be waiting on the Lord’s touch, declaring the Lord’s touch.

As an apostle and prophet the Lord sees fit to my inner preparation. There is little I must do other than rest in his work in my person.

When I first began entering into the work of inner healing and deliverance, some dozen years ago, there were all sorts of compellings that I obeyed.

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Done with Fear

transitionsFear can so easily undo any of us. When lived with for so long we may not even know what life would be without it.

What many don’t know is that I was once driven by fear. There were many things I was afraid of. Places I wouldn’t go, things I wouldn’t do, conversations I wouldn’t have.

And all through my life my expectation of bad things only brought me what I was expecting and further compounded my understanding of life.

I was living a fear-based life.

Then, thank God, I was rescued from this. First there was deep dissatisfaction about the tenor deep within me. I became tired of being afraid.

Second, I began to see that many of my gut fears were unfounded. There was no basis to many of my predispositions (all of them actually).

Third, my judgments and biases were sat down by the Lord and given a good talking to. So much of my fear was self-created. I was my own prisoner.

Then I found deep healing for all of these things. Giving my mind-set, my beliefs, my paranoia’s up in exchange for a new way of seeing things created a powerful shift in my being and life.

The fearful moments in my life that had been given much power – as I focussed and submitted to them – were undone.

Undone means gone. Kaput. Finished. And they’ve never come back.

Some of it has been a process, most of it has simply been freedom.

There is so much power in bringing our fears out into the open, the ridiculous, the mundane, the real and terrifying. All of it need not have a hold on our lives.

If you are interested in living free from fear, we can do something about that.

Together and in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ fear can have its last day in your life.


I’m hosting an evening of corporate prayer & healing regarding this stronghold of fear that is in many lives. If you are interested mark your Calendar:

  • Monday, November 11
  • 7:00 – 9:30 pm
  • 10082 160 Street, Surrey 

Note: The evening is free although we will make opportunity for an offering to go to the work of Capturing Courage Int’l around the world.

We will first spend some time just talking about fear, exposing it’s personality and how it shows up in our life. Then I will explain the basis for which we can have freedom from it. Out of this teaching time you will have opportunity to join in as we together pray over our fears to the Lord.

I make one stipulation. Please only come if you are truly serious about getting rid of fear and doing life differently. We will be doing some work with the Lord and that work is not done flippantly.

I suggest that you consider fasting for some time prior to our gathering. Pervasive strongholds such as fear often require our masks and coping mechanisms put aside, and nothing does this quite like fasting. If you cannot fast food, then consider something else. Ask the Lord, he’ll tell you what it might be.

I look forward to seeing you on Monday evening, November 11th.

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10


I’m always gauging agreement. What I mean is this:

‘How willing are people to agree with me in spirit?’

The path to freedom in Christ is not a difficult one, if we can agree. As a prayer minister I usher and declare freedom from personal strongholds, generational sins, and curses from people. It is my job.

Christ died on the cross and rose from the dead establishing the authority of this earth back where it belonged. In the hands of men and women and by the power of the name and blood of our Lord Jesus Christ.

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God’s Bath

When the Holy Spirit says, ‘Take a bath’ then I know that I am entering a new arena in the spirit realm.

I’ve experienced this a number of times before, where the Lord directed and compelled me to take a bath. A real-life bath in a real-life bathtub.

The first time I thought I was a bit nuts. It was back in 2009 and I was going on a weekend away with a girlfriend to her parents empty home. We were using the place to rest and relax and in the midst of my packing I was compelled to include a new bar of soap.

Who does that?!

But as the weekend progressed I found myself on the Saturday evening running a bath and settling into a deep presence of God over me.

Other times since have been the same. Always before a new level of ministry. Once after a heavy duty of outpouring.

Today, I’ve started my day with a bath. I never do that. Baths are reserved for evenings and before bedtime in my world. But today the compelling of the Holy Spirit had me bathing before breakfast.

Most of the time, and particularly lately, I feel most human. I’ve been packing and preparing to move, hanging out with my children, cleaning and sorting, none of which have the Spirit pouring through me per se. And so I’ve been feeling a bit humdrum and less than ordinary.

I am used to the Lord’s presence and while God is still here even when I am just Cyndy, the heavy presence of him I miss.

This bath though, alerts me that indeed life is moving forward. Ministry and freedom in Christ are at hand, not for me per se, but as I pour Him out on others.

And a deep gladness is settling over me. Contentment. Delight.

The work of God is like none other. It is a communion with the Spirit that nothing else matches.

And so now with my body ceremoniously prepared and cleansed for the next outpouring of God’s might and glory, all I can say is, ‘Look to the Lord, run after God, invest in what the Spirit has for you.’

You won’t ever regret it. Even if you feel a little daft at the start.